Thank you for opening up to me
For witnessing me in all that I am
For your courage to open your
heart and soul for me.
Our love may come in different shapes
as friends or lovers – or something in between
and it may change every day.
You’re not my partner
As I am my own main ally
I need to learn to hold myself
When I’m celebrating and when I’m afraid.
Yes, I am desiring a King
Someone to stand next to me
and to sit on the throne that stands next to mine.
I dust it off every now and then,
but I don’t rush to fill it
as it takes slaying dragons and
fighting battles to claim it.
It doesn’t take saving princesses though –
this Queen has got her own back
and she’s not looking for a white knight.
Loving me isn’t easy
as I will give you no guarantees
no false promises and no seatbelts.
We will dive deep and fast.
I will show you all of me –
It is a lot
It has freaked out many men before.
I will confront you with what you
don’t like about yourself
and likely the current of our connection
will take us both into wild waters of intensity
of all sorts.
I am holding myself as I am
asking you to hold yourself.
In the eye of the storm or in still waters
In passion and insecurities.
This heart of mine, it’s big
and it loves so many.
It has scars of loves who came before,
that made it even bigger.
My journey isn’t done
Opening myself to get to know
my depths even more
through the mirror of many.
I’m a wild woman, you see?
A panther in disguise.
Not to be captured or tamed
But to walk along with,
Trusting my choices
Knowing respect, honesty, and integrity
are my highest values
I’ll treat you as I desire to be treated
I ask you to trust me
Love me fiercely
Lust me tenderly
And shape-shift as we move
Choosing to open up to each other
Every moment anew.