The Ritual Cacao Ceremony

Cacao ceremony

Who doesn’t love chocolate? The combination of cacao, dance and a mind-expanding experience must be one of the most luscious things I can think of. I also love how plants and other natural substances can give us insights that we usually can’t reach. I call them imprints: once you felt them, you will always be able to reconnect to a certain feeling and apply it in new situations. I never tried ritual doses of theobromine, the active compound of chocolate. Raw cacao in ritual doses is celebrated for its capacities to open hearts and supports transformation through self-love. Raw cacao is also a powerful antioxidant, enhances the immune system, lowers the risk of heart disease, lowers high cholesterol and blood…

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How a binge during my detox made me love myself more

Detox challenge

Confession time. I had a huge binge on chocolate last night. During my detox. Over the last days I felt how little things made me feel like a loser. I was constantly subconsciously shaming myself for feeling hungry, for making my yugh-shakes into something that tasted quite alright with some stevia, cinnamon and cocoa. I was silently judging my cravings for sweets and nuts. Last night I was tired of being so tough towards myself. For 20 days I had been eating nothing but kale and other green veggies. And those proteine shakes. It was enough. So I challenged myself lovingly: ‘If you will go for sweets tonight babe, can you do that without feeling guilty? Can you enjoy it?…

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Your life = your experience (and not the general truth)

It's your experience

When we advice, teach or even preach to others, it’s easy to be convinced of our perspective on things. But don’t forget that everything you share comes from your experience, from how you’ve lived your life. And this may or may not resonate with someone else. Maybe you can have a little part of you be the observer, when someone asks you for advice. An observer that reminds you that all you say is not the general truth, but simply your experience of what does and doesn’t work for you in your life. But, of course, that’s my experience 😉 [youtube=https://youtu.be/YmpLdrBUID8]

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(Poem#15) I am responsible

I am responsible

It’s so easy, Fucking myself up, Unease raging through me, Telling myself there’s trouble Everywhere.   It’s so easy, Feeling left out, Left behind, Life a conspiracy Against me.   It’s so easy, Shutting myself out, Building up my walls, Lifting up the bridge – Alone.   It’s my choice, Always.   Love or fear; Open or close; Invite in or shut out; Live or survive.   I am responsible, I am courageaous, I am here, I am alive.   More than ever. ~ I am alone at home with my three young daughters while my partner is traveling and visiting beautiful people for a week. It’s so easy to get stuck in fear and panic. Would he forget me?…

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A letter to the women who sleep with my man

Letter to the women who sleep with my man

Dear sister, Thank you. Thank you for opening your heart and opening your body for my beloved. Thank you for being vulnerable with him. Thank you for sharing precious moments and organic bliss with him. Thank you for enriching his life. You can give him things I never can; for the simple reason that you are not me. You have a different flavor. There are different things that excite you, that make you tick, that frighten you. With that, you hand him another mirror to look into. You can show him things about himself that I never can. You have walked a different path than I did. You have a different past. With that, you can teach him things I…

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(Poem#14) Unconditional self love

Unconditional self love

Can I love myself, Independent of what you do? Can I embrace myself, No matter what anyone says about me? Can I open my heart again, When all I want is to run away? Can I stay humble, Without becoming insecure? Can I share about what touches me, Without playing the victim card? Can I smile at myself, through my tears? Can I see the lightness of being, Beyond the weight of the world? Can I love myself, Borderless, boundless, unconditional?

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(Poem#13) The beauty of a heart cracked open

Thank you love For cracking me wide open Allowing me to open my heart again and again.   Thank you love For breaking me open Showing me There’s a choice again and again.   Thank you love For tearing me open Giving me All and no reason to cry.   Thank you love For cracking me wide open Surrendering me To feel deeply alive again and again.   Thank you love.

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The cosmic joke

We choose the decor that shapes our life

This life, it’s just one big joke. What we see, it’s only the decor. It’s not real. Nothing really is. Nothing. Not even the concept we call ‘I’ or ‘mine’. Even that’s a joke. One that we all believe. Until we see it through. Until we see there is a way out. That way out is by letting go. Letting go of everything: you name, your job, your status, your body – and eventually the whole concept that you believe you are. Only when you can let go of all of that, only then you will be free. What does it mean to be free? It means you have a choice. In each single moment, you can choose to open…

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Whiskey and chocolate for breakfast #2 (video)

Wisdom of the forest

After a three day retreat with my friend in England, being seculded in his cozy house, surrounded by fresh fruit, chocolate, tea and whiskey, I’m walking at the Hampstead Heath. The sun is shining and the trees are stunning. The last months have majorly confused me. Old beliefs have shaken loose. I thought I was sure about what I wanted, only to realise I was basically following expectations of others. This week of being out of my daily life gives me an opportunity to -sort of- look at myself from a distance. Realizing what I desire. I forgot that I love to nose through old bookstores. I forgot that I love crystals, pulling cards and other witchy stuff. I forgot…

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Ayahuasca

Are you familiar with the fascinating realm of synchronicities? Synchronicities are occurrences that are so much aligned with your path that they simply do not feel like pure coincidences. I like to believe that synchronicities show me the direction of my purpose. My heart-centered path of immense growth and happiness. Since I focus on my growth processes, my life appears to have central themes. Often this is a fear or insecurity that feels stuck in my being. This can be a childhood trauma, an accident or a limiting belief. When learning to appreciate my body was a theme, I was invited to come to intuitive dancing in contact with other people. I met people who told me out of the…

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