Feel like crying

Some days things just don’t work out. Emotions swirl around. They don’t have a clear reason or source. They’re just there. Life seems tough. It makes me feel like crying. What’s wrong? Nothing. Everything. I don’t know! I’m so happy with the life I live. I’m so grateful for the abundance it brings me. Still tears run down my face. I want to be free of worries. Feel relaxed in everything I do. See everything and everybody as a source of blissful joy. See each day as an infinite source of possibilities. Enjoy every split second of it, smiling broadly. That’s not how I feel today. Today I feel there’s not enough. There’s not enough time for me to be…

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Emotions during processes of change

How do you master new habits? How do you grow as a person? There are four steps to take to change yourself: 1. Unconsciously incompetent At first you don’t realize there’s something to change. You lack the knowledge or the experience or the references to be aware a certain habit is not helping you as a person. And since nothing bothers you, there’s no trigger for change. Let’s use the example of smoking. You may be a smoker and be totally unaware of the health risks smoking implies. You have enough money to buy cigarettes and matches, you like to smoke and you love the social interaction with other smokers that smoking brings. Why would you stop smoking if there…

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Can I blame the rain?

Sunday morning. The kids are still sleeping. Boyfriend is reading a book. No appointments yet. The perfect moment to go outside for a long ride with my horse. But… it’s raining. I could stay at home, get a little grumpy. Get nervous because my plans for the day get mixed up. Direct my bad mood at my boyfriend and daughters, making them feel bad too. It’s not my fault I feel bad. It’s because of the rain. I blame the rain for how I feel. But is that fair? Is the rain in any way responsible for me choosing to go for a ride with my horse or not? There is only one person responsible for the choices I make.…

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Vegan for a month

Last week I was in Norway at the Morten Hake Summit. This congress about authentic relationships had a line up of great speakers, including Steve Pavlina, Zan Perrion, Johnny Soporno, Rob Brinded, Noah Hammond and Andy Yosha. Their speeches were inspiring and the speakers themselves stayed the whole summit, giving all participants many opportunities to shake hands, hug and have a one on one chat. The organizers and participants of the Summit appeared to be awesome people. A spontaneous hug can be the start of a warm friendship. And I hugged many people! Some returning topics during the conversations I had were open relationships and healthy food. Many new found friends appeared to be vegan or into raw food. When I…

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