Do you know this feeling:
After intense emotional (or physical) turmoil or very demanding times, things get calmer, and you are doing well. But it’s hard to really get to that feeling. It’s more of a ‘leaning into the idea that all is well now, I can relax, and I could feel happy’. And then indeed feeling that joy bubbling up every now and then.
I’m noticing that feeling happy sometimes overcomes. But more often it is a state of allowing.
Growing up with the Christian/Calvinistic idea that ‘humans need to suffer, work hard, and struggle to get to salvation’ definitely didn’t help.
Though, at this moment, with a quiet house, the gentle scent of autumn approaching in the distance (late summer, early autumn is my favorite season) a good things to look forward to, my body and nervous system relax, I’m counting my many blessings and notice that joyful feeling in me.
