Feel like crying

Some days things just don’t work out. Emotions swirl around. They don’t have a clear reason or source. They’re just there. Life seems tough. It makes me feel like crying. What’s wrong? Nothing. Everything. I don’t know! I’m so happy with the life I live. I’m so grateful for the abundance it brings me. Still tears run down my face. I want to be free of worries. Feel relaxed in everything I do. See everything and everybody as a source of blissful joy. See each day as an infinite source of possibilities. Enjoy every split second of it, smiling broadly. That’s not how I feel today. Today I feel there’s not enough. There’s not enough time for me to be…

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Emotions during processes of change

How do you master new habits? How do you grow as a person? There are four steps to take to change yourself: 1. Unconsciously incompetent At first you don’t realize there’s something to change. You lack the knowledge or the experience or the references to be aware a certain habit is not helping you as a person. And since nothing bothers you, there’s no trigger for change. Let’s use the example of smoking. You may be a smoker and be totally unaware of the health risks smoking implies. You have enough money to buy cigarettes and matches, you like to smoke and you love the social interaction with other smokers that smoking brings. Why would you stop smoking if there…

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Do I have to change myself?

There are things I want differently in my life. I want myself to grow and develop. I wish for changes. But changing is something I’d rather avoid. Can I change myself and my life without changing? Guess what will happen when you do what you always did. You get what you always got. If you really want change, you have to change. You have to be the change. But changing is scary! What’s the worst thing that can happen? Your life will change? But that’s what you want! 😉 We all have this imaginary space around us, called our comfort zone. As long as we stay inside that comfort zone, we feel safe. We know what’s in there, we know…

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Letter to my selves

Dear shy girl, Thank you for being a part of me. Thank you for providing me with a safe haven to protect my soul when I cannot run or walk away. You are always there to warn me when I’m about to cross my own borders without respecting them. Without respecting myself. Thank you for warning me when I don’t feel safe. Dear shy girl, I know it is not easy to let go of control. To step outside and really be present in situations where you feel vulnerable. Maybe, with the right people (and trust me, you are amazing intuitively finding the right people at the right time), it is okay to let go a bit more often. Don’t…

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Personal challenge update

Photo: Mariët Mons, www.marietmons.nl There are three Personal Challenges waiting for an update. Personal Challenge #0: Vegan for a month I have been vegan now for almost three weeks, and it is way easier than I thought. I stacked some healthy food stuffs like raw cocoa nibs, chia seeds, goji berries, flax seeds and whole wheat crackers. I found out that extra bitter chocolate fulfills my monthly chocolat cravings. Weekly we buy maybe 20 kilo of fruit and veggies for smoothies, salads, veggie stews and more. My parents have a large garden and started harvesting potatoes, bringing us a bag full each time they visit. I thought I would miss cheese, but I don’t. I do crave the salty, chewy…

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Vegan for a month

Last week I was in Norway at the Morten Hake Summit. This congress about authentic relationships had a line up of great speakers, including Steve Pavlina, Zan Perrion, Johnny Soporno, Rob Brinded, Noah Hammond and Andy Yosha. Their speeches were inspiring and the speakers themselves stayed the whole summit, giving all participants many opportunities to shake hands, hug and have a one on one chat. The organizers and participants of the Summit appeared to be awesome people. A spontaneous hug can be the start of a warm friendship. And I hugged many people! Some returning topics during the conversations I had were open relationships and healthy food. Many new found friends appeared to be vegan or into raw food. When I…

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